He really cares!

I was asked recently to be in my friend Becky's wedding & I was stressing out about it because I didn't want to have to say no because of finances. Once I talked to Becky about the details it seemed that I could save money on a lot of the costs by doing some things myself and just skipping out on some pampering. It got even better when she told me I could pick out my own dress; just had to be long and black. If you know me well, you know I like to find a good deal. So I have been searching online and thinking of any store I could possibly go to and find a cheap but beautiful dress. Well wouldn't you know God had a fun surprise for me. I had gone to several thrift stores and had no luck. But tonight I thought I should do a run to a different Goodwill. I wasn't really in the mood but I just felt like I should run there real quick. As soon as I got there and started looking at the dresses I spotted a possibility. I took it off the rack and looked at it. It was perfect! But first I had to see if it was the right size and price. Well it looked about the right size but there was no price tag. So I tried it on and it was perfect. I took it up to the front to ask about the price. The lady said since it didn't have a tag it was $12.99. WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT? I about did a praise Jesus dance right there in Goodwill. I'm still so excited. Oh my goodness tonight I was reminded of how much God cares about the small details. In a time where we are in a stressful financial situation I keep getting reminders of how God provides for us. He has not failed us one time. And I'm so grateful for moments like tonight. It's as if He is smiling and saying "I am always true to my word and I care about everything, even a dress."


Matthew 6:25-34
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Flawed

I am blown away. God, again, has shown himself faithful. On Thursday I checked my mail. I opened a card from someone I didn't know and sat there stunned. Someone was blessed by this blog and chose to bless me. I am beyond grateful.
Why do I write this blog? I write it because I know there are hurting people that feel alone and need some encouragement. I write it for those who need to know that they aren't the only imperfect people with struggles they feel they should have conquered already. I just want to be honest and open so I can help others. I am flawed and that's okay. I'm working to become more like Christ and falling all the way to get there. It's not a surprise though, isn't that what we have been told it will be like. So why do we go through life feeling as though we aren't good enough? I still struggle with that, and sometimes feel that it's so ridiculous, but I know I'm not the only one. I do love my life, but when I stop focusing on what God has blessed me with, that's when I get stuck feeling jealous of others and wanting to be someone I'm not. I know that's not what God wants for me. I can't be my best if I'm constantly looking to be who I'm not.
There are some dreams God has given me and I'm working on those right now. I am not moving at the pace I probably should because I'm scared. Fear is trying to take over for what God has told me to do. What am I afraid of? A lot of things; what people might think of me, not being good enough, and making mistakes. But if I let fear hold me back people might miss out on a blessing God has for them because of my delayed obedience. I am going to listen to God and do my best to move forward. Mistakes and all. I believe that He will make something beautiful from something that seems so flawed to me.