I am not qualified, not even a little bit. So why is it that I think I know what's best for me and that I can do God's job by trying to plan my life?
We have never regretted our decision of Justin moving on from his 11 years at GT Austin but I have definitely asked God "why", more than a million times. This isn't fair, why has life been so hard? Why have we not found our place yet? Why do we have to go through this? Why is my hard working, amazing husband being told that his 40 hours are being cut to 10? Why can't I explain to people what I am going through and help them understand what post-partum depression is, and that I can't "will myself to feel better"? Why do I want to run away and start over? Why have some friends quit on us? So many questions I don't have the answers to. I'm struggling to completely trust that God knows what He is doing, but somewhere in me I know He does... In a rough spot all around just trying to be patient and wait on the Lord.
Will this part be over soon? I'm not sure but while we are here I'm hoping to learn a lot and grow stronger. We are having a hard time "seeing the light at the end of the tunnel", but as my amazing mother in law always says, "This too shall pass."
"Surrender to a power greater than you. I'm limited, God is NOT. What is God calling you to let go of? Quit trying to do His job." -Rick Shurtz
I was just thinking of you this morning....I have to tell you a (well funny now) not so funny then story of what happened over the weekend.
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Kat
I know EXACTLY how you feel! Completely different circumstances! The past 2+ years for us have been completely out of our control. It has been the strangest time in our lives. As many times as we followed what we truly felt God called us to...we find ourselves asking, "What? Really?" I have come to a place where I try to remind myself of this verse from Phillipians 12-13...
ReplyDeleteI know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Two years ago when things began to change drastically for us, and we were in such a cloud, our theme song was Tunnel from Third Day. Still looking for that light, but I'm getting there. I do catch glimpses of it here and there. Hang in there girl!
Wow, do we have common stories or what! We really should chat sometime. I'll be praying for you guys. I know things will get better...but man being in the ministry can certainly have it's rough patches.
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